Believing in myself – Why I joined The Blogcademy
In the end of July I took a trip to Berlin, not only to visit my lovely friend Ranija, but also to attend The Blogcademy, a super cool and fun workshop hosted by the Blog Goddesses Gala Darling, Kat Williams and Shauna Haider.
Don’t be fooled. This is not one of these booooring workshops where someone monotonously reads through 500 power point sheets while you slumber away into dreamland.
The three girls, Gala, Kat and Shauna, are glamorous, fun and creative and so is the event itself. From the every girl’s dream goodie bag (hello hairbands, stick-on tattoos and sparkly ears) to the cheerful decoration, everything is, looks and feels open, light and witty. And the most important thing: The headmistresses, as the three ladies call themselves, talk serious business and give you all the info you need to turn your passion for blogging into a real job with real money (yay!). Besides all this the ladies are also so warm, kind and open and not one percent arrogant or unapproachable. They just radiate love and passion.
And as the event itself is super special and fun, so are the people who attend it.
I met so many gorgeous women from all kinds of different blogs and backgrounds. Super creative and vibrant chicks I tell you! I even got to meet one of my all time favorite German vegan bloggers, Franziska from Veggie Love.
So, a huge enrichment on all levels. But I nearly missed out on this gorgeous experience, and here is why…
When I first read about the workshop I was intrigued but then very quickly my no-no-thoughts came up like: “I could never make money with my blog”, “I can’t invest so much money into myself, it is useless”, “I will never be a successful blogger” etc.bla.bla.
We, especially we women, are super brilliant in complimenting or even idealizing others. But when it comes to our own abilities and talents we tend to talk ourselves down. Like one of my favorite spiritual teachers Marianne Williamson writes so wisely in her book “A Return To Love“:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”
I get goosebumps every time I read this quote because it is so deep and true and makes me sad and happy at the same time. Sad because I absolutely know this feeling of not appreciating myself enough and not believing in myself. And happy because I am free to choose another way, to choose to see the good and special things about me which enables me to do good things in this world and serve other people. And we can all choose it: LOVE over fear.
Of course it is not easy to change and it surely will not happen over night. It is a daily practice to observe and debunk destructive thoughts and feelings and turn them into positive ones that will not drag you down but lift you up. Like training a muscle.
Training self love and self appreciation might just be the most important tasks in life, because they are the base for kindness, love and compassion for others.
I am planning on writing a whole blog post on my self love practices very, very soon. So stay tuned for that.
Finally, I can say that I am more than grateful that I overcame my fear thoughts on attending the The Blogcademy and that I was able to meet so many lovely souls and learn deep stuff to make this little happy blogging place of mine even more valuable for me and for you, my lovely readers.
All pictures by Shell De Mar shelldemar.com